Cheerleading ♥

So I think I forgot how much I love cheering.  I've had 3 practices with my new team, and even though there are 7 of us at the moment, and the talent isnt where I'm used to be. I LOVE IT. I'm so sore I can barley walk, I'd rather spend all day in bed when I'm not at practice, but I forgot how much I love tumbling, stuntin, jumping, and dancing.  It doesn't look like we are going to be able to compete this year, with 7 girls, you cant really do much, but hopefully next year we can get more girls to join the team.  With a school this small its hard to.  I'm meeting really nice people on campus, and I can't wait for school to start on monday :D first football games Saturday night, we arent cheering at the game but it will be nice to have one game that we can hang out in the stands and see whats going on :).  Orentation is tomorrow along with practice, hopefully I get a roomate soon, this place is too quiet with out another person here!

New school year, New me

Here I am about to start my 4th year of school, in another new place.  I cant help but think about last year this time, how I was feeling, and where I was, and realize how much I have changed.  Some people may not see a change at all but others see a dramatic one.  Last year I was starting school at Sam Houston State University in Huntsville Texas.  I had just moved there, starting to make new friends, cheering and being optimistic about school.  I knew where I was at in life that I didnt really need to be there, but I was there to make my mom happy and to prove that I could amount to something.  I made friends that will forever be close to me, who were there when it seemed like my world was crashing down, friends that I honestly felt I could be myself with.  I was in college, turning 20 having the time of my life, going out dancing staying up late laughing more then I have ever in my life.  Then I started talking to this guy, and my world as I knew it slowly started to change.  I moved again at the end of the semester, said goodbye to what were social norms to me to take on a new life that seemed so strange and weird.  I wasnt going all that willingly, I didnt like the idea of transferring again, I LOVED Texas, and figured I would be there until I graduated, but I loved him so I knew that no matter what happened, it would be alright because somehow everything always seems to work out.  Now that I look back on last spring in Utah it wasnt all that bad.  It was far from home, and too much of a change for me at once.  A place that in a few years from now I could go back and probably be very happy, but I wasnt grown up enough, things were changing in my life and I wasnt sure if I would be ok with it.  I never have regretted going to Utah, and if I had the chance to change and stay in Texas I still would of chose Utah.  I may have done a few things different while I was there, but going there I wouldnt change.  I was so excited to leave, I knew deep down I wasnt going to go back.  That even if this man that I loved with all my heart was going back, we would somehow make it though if I wasnt there.  I wanted to be back home, I wanted to be with my family and my friends, something that I missed so much out west, that no matter what I did I couldnt get it back.  I didnt miss partying, that was the last thing I missed.  That has never been something that I've enjoyed.  I missed being able to do as I please, and not being "judge" by my decisions.  Thats the one thing I hate the most is someone thinking they know me, judging me.  When they havent really taken the time to get to know me and to know what I am going through.  I changed my life for the better out there and I love the decisions I have made.  I have made some mistakes over the past year, but I am 20 years old, I am young, and I am new at this, I am changing all these aspects of my life.  I am going to make mistakes, but Heavenly Father loves me, and will help me with my flaws and make me a better person with every set back I have He forgives.  So now back to the begining of this post,  I am starting my 4th year of school with probably another year and a half left to go, I wont know until the registrars office finishes finalizing my transcripts.  But I want to go to law school once I graduate, I want to prove to all the people who said I wasnt going to amount to anything that I am.  When I have my mind set I do it. I've been looking at a lot of different schools.  But I plan on graduating from Southern VA, I hate transferring and I never want to do it again.  I am in a place now where I am happy, I am back on the east coast, very close to family and very old friends, with this crazy adorable funny caring man that I love.  No matter what has happened in the past year he has shown me that I can overcome anything.  When he should of critizied he cared and loved.  He has never judged me and is the whole reason why I am heading in this new direction.