Electronics

I am HORRIBLE with electronics!
I have been in college for 3 years and I have had 3 different computers. My mom stole my first one, and I upgraded for a small version of the one I had. Then through all my travels during winter vacation, someone at the airport decided that dropping my luggage would be a good idea and cracked the screen, probably at the newark airport where I spent most of my vacation, and with all my luck, the company that i got my very expensive computer with a WONDERFUL warranty filed for bankruptcy so I'm stuck with a crack down my screen! Well I obviously need something to do school work on so I went and bought a little acer notebook from office depot for less then 300 bucks, and now my itunes doesnt want to work. To try and fix this problem I for some reason plug my ipod into my computer and now that wont work! This is also my second ipod in a few years because i fried my ipod last year disconnecting it with out the proper steps.
I have ZERO luck with electronics.
And now I'm depressed because my ipod is dead, needs to be charged, and I cant update it at all.

Should I Stay or Should I Go??

I've been thinking about this one a lot the past few weeks. Come back to UVU in the fall or go back to UMaine. Its a really hard decision for me to make. I'm not really fond of Utah, some people I have met, I have grown to love in a short period of time, but others have ruined the experience for me. It rains to much and being in the valley makes me feel like the walls are closing in on me. As I sit here not being able to sleep and church coming up in a few hours I think about the people I will see and how if I didn't come back I would miss them dearly. The Bosco family for one, they have felt like a second family. Welcoming me into their home with open arms, always willing to help or be there to talk to. Then Saramarie, the past few weeks hanging out with her and the guys has been a blast. I feel like I can talk to her so easily and she is contagious with laughter. My roommate Renee, who always seems to understand what I am going through, with our "I hate Utah days" sitting in the living room talking about life before Utah, and our dislike for other certain people. Then there is the most important person, Nic. I couldn't imagine being cross country from him, not seeing him when I pleased, driving across Utah visiting temples, talking for hours about everything important in our lives, yet nothing at all. Every great memory I have here has to do with him. He is my best friend, he knows everything about me, my good days and bad days yet still loves me anyway. But then there is home.. I miss UMaine, my friends that I'm still close with from high school, and college. I miss cheering how it made me feel, the excitement from competing, and the great shape I was in. Since I stopped cheering my body and motivation to stay fit have disappeared as well. Now I look in the mirror and I don't recognize myself from the waste down. Its embarrassing too others might not notice but I sure do. And the only way I know how to get into shape is tumbling, jumping, stunting, and being forced to condition. And I'm also a momma and daddy's girl. The baby of the family, my moms only child. I've never been away for too long. And I am homesick. I miss my mom more then anything, she is one of my best friends. I can talk to her about anything, she always listens to me rant and rave about stupid things and she seems to be one of the only ones who can talk me out of the worst moods. Things aren't going too good at home and heaven forbid something happening I don't know if I could forgive myself if something took a turn for the worse and I wasn't there. MS has always been a big part of my life, my grandmother died from complications when I was very young, my Aunt C my senior year of high school. And my other Aunt, my Uncle Steve and my sister Amy have all been diagnosed with it. Only 2 more of my Grandfathers kids are left undiagnosed and the signs aren't looking so good for them. And who knows about the rest of us grandkids! I remember very little from my Aunt and Grandmother but they were weak and frail, on bed rest not what they had been before (or so I'm told). I couldn't imagine seeing a family member go through that. Since high school I wanted to get out of Maine, I hated the country the people who had never left the state, the waco's that lived there. No good shopping or restaurants, having to drive an hour to a decent mall, and if you needed something nice 3 hours to Boston. I hated living in the woods, the camp ground, the horrible dirt road that was a mud pit in the spring. When I left last year for Texas I couldn't of been happier I wanted out and to never go back. I only wanted to visit never have to deal with small town drama and the people I had grown up with. I was ready for new adventures, new friends and experiences I couldn't get in small town New England. And when I came to Utah I felt the same way. Now all I want is to drive down my dirt road to my house, spend the afternoon with my mom, sitting out back with my dad, see my high school friends, cheer in the freezing Alfond Arena. But how do I give up what I have started here? Yet how do I stay so far from my parents when they need me and I need them the most? Way too much to handle at 20 and finals coming up....

Spring Semester

January
This semester started with Nic and I driving from Houston to Provo, well I went and picked him up in Dallas and we drove the rest of the way in 2 days. West Texas is VERY boring, along with New Mexico. I have a new fear of canyons especially when its snowing! School in Utah is going alright, advice to anyone thinking of transferring, be prepared to retake a lot of classes, especially lower level ones. I am a third year Political Science major yet I am still taking 100 level classes! I also hate that I need to take an upper level math, and biology and chemistry. I am going to be dealing with politics and the law, I don't understand why I need to know calculus, and know how to recognize different plant species!

February
I got to go to the Draper Temple open house. It is so beautiful the art work and all the time and detail that goes into it is stunning! The feeling inside the Temple is unexplainable as well. I got to go twice, once with just Nic and myself and the second time with Brandon and Ali.


Valentines Day was WONDERFUL, Nic surprised me by waking me up with breakfast, he and my roommates planned this all out. We had a wonderful dinner at Macaroni Grill with Brandon and Ali, and I got chocolate covered strawberries. My best friend Rachel convinced her parents to take a family vacation to Utah, and she came to Park City. I LOVED having Rachel here, the trip was very needed, I was so happy to have someone from home. And it was great that Nic got to meet Rachel, he got to see my silly side, and me acting like I'm 5!

Nic broke his ankle while we were at Jump on It. We ended up spending 2 separate nights hanging out with the people in the ER, seeing 2 different surgeons, and lots of doctor visits.

I got baptized on February 28th, and became a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. This is probably one of the greatest things I have done, it has truly changed my life for the better. Nic's parents and friend Chantelle were able to come out and be there for my baptism, and Nic was able to baptize me, on one foot. It was very memorable! Nic, his family, the Bosco family and my brother helped so much with their support to make my decision.


March
March has been kinda slow. I did my first NCAA bracket, I did HORRIBLE! I dont know anything about basketball, it was fun though! Nic had surgery on his ankle, I now know how my mom feels when I get hurt or sick. I'm not used to being on this side of an injury and I worry too much. It has made me more patient though. For spring break we hung out in Provo most of the week. We had planned on going to California but since Nic broke his ankle it kinda put a damper on what we could do there. My mom wanted to fly me home but didn't tell me anything until the middle of break. I would of loved to go home and ski :) Instead Nic and I headed down to St. George to see the Nashville Tribute Band perform. They did a show at the Tuacahn Theater which was stunning. St. George was beautiful and so is the Temple there. I kept asking Nic why we didnt go to school at Dixie, nice weather all year round and beautiful views, its my kind of place, I hate snow!
April
Now its April, the semester is closing in, classes are getting harder with tons of stuff due all at once. Finals are coming up as well. Brandon and Ali are getting married on May 1st, I am really excited, I got to go to most of Ali's dress fittings and she is going to look amazing! And I'm sure Brandon can clean up well. I miss cheering a lot. This is the first year that I haven't cheered competitively. Talking to my former teammates from Maine and Texas has made me depressed!! They are both in Daytona Beach right now, Maine made it to finals, it has been a goal for as long as I had been on the team, and I am so proud of them, and jealous that I couldn't be there to perform on the Band Shell with them! Sam Houston ended up getting 7th, which is amazing since the program hasn't competed before, and most of the girls have never competed! The middle of May Nic and I get to go to Maine for 2 weeks and see my family. I can't wait to go home, I miss my family so much, and I am excited to see my friends. My friend Tiffany is having a baby on June 4th, so I am hoping that the little one comes early so I can meet her! Finals are in 2 weeks, I cant wait for this semester to be over, and for it to be summer!!